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dang dog!

Catharsis can take various forms… Here’s how I learned to let it be, today…

Woke up from a looong dream, as I was laying on the ground waiting for the first bullet to hit me, the end of a dream where I’d been trying to hide someone away from goons in three different places… and ultimately failed. I drove Sol to school a little out of sorts…

Then, found myself texting about it with Mayte (my sister) at a nearby park.. just after Byung (my wife) texted me about having just vacuumed dog hair off the seats–good! cause the dog was laying on the floorboard… then it got REALLY interesting.

I let Shadow out of the car to get some relief.. and continued texting Mayte. Shadow came back and stared at the car, with the open front door, which I was standing next to. I asked her if she could go find the bunny, so she’d get a little more exercise; and, what does she do??

She bolts for the door, jumps into the car across the driver seat and into the back floorboard!! Mind you, its been raining, her paws are all muddy! I open the back panel of the suicide door, and yell at her in disgust to get out of the car. She won’t so I drag her out; then shout some more profanities. The day is starting to feel cumbersome, to say the least.

Reaching for the baby wipes. I wipe the seat away for 5 minutes. She’s cowering by the car as I regain my composure, open the back panel again and invite her back into the car.

But, to my absolute horror, instead of climbing into the back floorboard, she dauntily proceeds to park herself on the back seat!!! You know, the ones that Byung had lovingly vacuumed yesterday!!!!! “You gotta be F*N kidding me!!”

So, I practically tossed her out of the car this time, cause she wasn’t understanding why I was so pissed off; and, get back to my seat scrubbing cycle.

After another 5 minutes have passed wiping while listening to Jubal prank some unsuspecting lady about recovering her password, I settle into the pace of affairs, let the dog in and head home… all the while thinking Byung jinxed me!!

So, it was with great passion that I related to her my experience during the first hour of today; and, we both got a good laugh when I suggested that the dog’s stupid sensor was somehow connected to Byung’s anxiety.

As I told Mayte, I’ve had worse days. I had to go through all that so I could have my moment of release, and return to being all smiles. Shit happens for a reason.
Don’t let Stupid get to You. Have a Great(er) Day!! ;P

still learning to live without you

you stormed into my dreams last night
we held hands we kissed lovingly

just like so many times before
when we used to hide away, skip class, and giggle into late in the morning

but, one day long ago, selfishly, i pushed you away..

this morning i awoke perturbed by the ghost of our beatiful days together

like a train without a destination
i felt intensely the weight of my remorse and my immense desire to be with you

old memories trickled into my mind
the smell of your hair the softness of your skin
the sweet nothings you would whisper in my ear
that cherubic smile of yours that could slice through a thousand layers of sadness
both the joy and fear that i felt the morning i woke up to realize how much i really loved you and how much you were willing to do for me..
the last time we spent together
watching you leave, fading in the distance
knowing that all i ever really wanted was to chase after you,
that only in your arms would i ever really feel home

i woke up this morning realizing i have never loved anyone so intensely as you
desperately wanting to reach out to you
to hear your voice, about your life, that you are happy..

and it tears me up inside that i can’t
because i know that in doing so i would shatter the fragile peace
that you have worked for so many years to achieve

i in turn would have to admit that i had made a terrible mistake
and in doing so would break other hearts and dole out shattered dreams

but i know i’m lying to myself keeping silent..
i can sense the high price to be paid not doing what truly would feel right
the cosmos always attains its retribution…

so i try to find solace that in my silent suffering and self imposed distance from you
i am somehow preventing the fabric of space time itself from tearing apart

and, yet, Oh! what i would give up to be with you
to see that smile just one more time..

no. its too late, and i’ve suffered not enough..
all i can do is pray to God that you have forgotten me
convince myself this is all just debris in my heart, selfish self unmanaged
and beg for the strength and peace of mind to live without you

you left me unsettled last night, love, haunted
but, what a delight to have you in my arms again!